1ST!! i embarassed myself in choir yesterday and brought down the name of sscc. they called me to sing a note and i sang it with THE ULTIMATE LACK OF CONFIDENCE!!! i went out of pitch i started laughing. I WAS SPOILING MY OWN REPUTATION! and it was horrible. mr yiong spoke to me during the break and i nearly cried coz i ambarassed myelf again. he said that if i coulden't even carry myself as a soloist properly... how am i gonna sing solo in.. wad ever they had in mind. so like.. YEAH! that can lead to several possiblities of me killing myself in the future. they making me not do solo.. and the worst part is that people in my choir will look down on me and not look up like they use to.! ( ps: no one clapped when i sang, they laughed ) and I WAS SOO FUCK! and that leads to loosing frens to.. ( long story ). i lost soo much confidence! I WAS AN EPIC FAILURE!!
secondly, i fucked my term 3 results. but it isn't so bad la.
thirdly, since my results was so oooo epic.. my mom pissed me off by asking me to plan my time properly, and that adds on the stress that incumalated in me now. so fuck it,,,
fell in love with music @ 10:58 AM
